a little bit of happy

Okay, okay, a whole lot of happy. It's very interesting how all of a sudden things fit. I am not filled with questions, feelings of dread, anxiety or fear. I am calm. It's as though there is a crockpot in my belly, slowly cooking up something wonderful, something worth waiting for.

Update: I just re-read that and realized it kind of sounded like I am pregnant, which is certainly not the case. That does remind me that I need to send my cousin a "congrats on your newest" card!